SEJARAH 2016

Assalamualaikum. Hi, oleh sebab lama tak menulis aku pun tak ingat apa ucap salam yang selalu aku beri....hehe. Dan kembali menulis bila terasa nak tumpahkan sesuatu, bila ombak menghempas, macam sekarang. Tahap fragile yang kosong. Bunyi ting ting tin man. I need heart.....

Aku pernah baca, tanda kematangan akal tu bila orang tu meninggalkan perkara yang sia-sia.

Kenapa Hot putar lagu lama je hari ni? Kan tahun baru.3

Recap of many thing happened last year. I'll just pick up some.

Crying out of blame game. That was the time I learnt about some psychiatric disorder. It is disease. A very bad one than any other chronic disease.

Being a leader is not my thing. I am just a loyal and hardworking  worker when I get into it.

I was once held in a very tight position. I got severe fever, headache and lots of assignment piling up with presentations. I had thought of giving up and tried every contacts to hold on. I contacted Ray, who is my long friend in lower high school, had not contacted her in ages, and now I am contacting her to help myself out. Bunch of thanks dear.

At the same time, I don't know why had I write something on this contact. I swear not to use it unless in emergency. And out of control, due to my severe headache and extreme confusional state, it turn out that I pressed the sent icon. For terrible I thought that my face turns pale as if I had committed a big crime. And that was the last time. I was too scared to even write anything anymore. Ciken. Remembering might come to a conclusion; whats wrong with her actually?

Last time, I went back home as my mum called. Call me crybaby, I have been one. Haha. I check out my camera as I would be out for study trip this new year semester break. Luckily it is still functioning. Ouch, I was too rebellious from my time in the first high school. Turn out there were many of us classmates images there, and my enemy. But I just realised that he is quite handsome back there. Thanks to Jiji who became the cameraman. I don't know how it turn out to became like this. But that camera holds too many things. *grin*

I had a crush, and I know it is wrong on so many level when I feel it. Luckily my condition were like in ICU (not in good state, I sank if it would describe it), and that little thing although I guess it is not my side first knew about it, it seems to have passed its expiry date. The train left me with its trail. Though I had thought about this several times. It is my part who should be apologizing if there is any hope built out of my act. I was too dense, and please me just moving on. We'll create more scene.

Ikon Syabab told me that you should not get involved or your sail will sank.

I also touched bee's nest. (Betul ke dak entah English). Cari fasal. Mistake of prying on others life.

Hence,

I won't give up. I will retrieve you back (I also do not know who) when I am back on track. If not, just pray for the goodness sake until death tears me apart. Maybe it is not meant to be.

I will be having exam the next day after tomorrow. And my labs were not done yet. So thats it. Pray me well. :)

Bertabahlah.

_malina_

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